Gay or Happy: One Man's Journey into Identity

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Gay or Happy: One Man's Journey into Identity

Gay or Happy: One Man's Journey into Identity

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From elementary school on, I never fit in with the boys. I lived every day in a fantasy world of codependent fixation on other males. Hopelessness and self-hatred were my normal. I had no sexual desires for females, only for males. And by age 17, I was suicidal from the inner turmoil and sexual sin. Bouts of porn and compulsive masturbation were my medication of choice, and I was powerless to resist them. After years of failed attempts at freedom, I discovered some kingdom realities and encountered God in areas and ways that transformed me. Jesus died for our sexual wholeness and freedom. This is the story of how I got free. 


About the author:
Ken holds a B.S. in Marketing/Finance; is a graduate of Bethel’s 3-year School of Supernatural Ministry; has been a pastor at Bethel Church (Redding, CA) since 2006; has regularly ministered in Bethel’s men’s purity ministry since 2010; is co-founder of Equipped To Love (, a ministry to those impacted by homosexuality; is co-founder of the CHANGED Movement (, a growing movement of individuals who are outspoken and open about their experiences of life after leaving LGBTQ; and serves Moral Revolution ( as an author, lecturer, and minister. Today, Ken consults with those who struggle with their sexual identity and helps them journey with God to find wholeness & freedom (FMI: Ken’s greatest joys are his beautiful wife and their four incredible children.

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